I apologize. I have been absent from my words and thoughts, and I have not created a blog in quite some time.
What a year! Let’s not talk about it! Let’s talk about how a person sees the world and how that evolves and changes. I have had a profound moment in my life that made me stop and smile.
A month or so ago on a wet autumn Saturday I was dressed in my wellies, some old (not terribly clean) sweat pants and a t shirt.
I had my reading glasses perched on my nose and I was busy putting bubble wrap on the inside of our greenhouse to extend the growing season. Suddenly I had the ability to see myself from another person’s perspective. It made me laugh out loud. I looked ridiculous, rain was dripping through the gaps onto me, my clothes were a disaster, it was very unlikely that my hair, (which by the way is now dye free and quite grey), had seen a hair brush that day. Yet I was happy, and completely content and there was nowhere else on the planet that I would rather be! It made me realize once again, that I had turned into my parents. I always used to marvel as a younger person as to why my parents seemed content in their middle years to be gardening at the weekend when they could surely be doing something much more exciting…..????? It seems that actually they were doing the very thing that was exciting and I was too inexperienced in life to see it.
The moral of this story is that, I think, here in my forties, I have discovered that I am content, finally.